Summer classes.

Summer classes.

We hate em and even though we might not need them during the summer, we do it anyway to get rid of them.

We always struggle at how we're going to find a way to pay them. Summer boosts this year are only $600 and classes come out to between $700-$900. It sucks! Like, why can't we just get the amount we need to take them? Or why can't they be free like the whole, any classes after 12 hours is free.

Yeah, that'd be awesome.

Buuuut it isn't unfortunately. We are left to struggle over finding the rest of the money to pay off, if we even get a summer boost. If we don't, we have to take out a loan and now owe even more money. Why is college so expensive?

Why can't we just have a school free summer for once? Man I can't wait for graduation. Only one more summer semester and then this Fall, I have about 6 classes then I'm free in December.

But then the stress of life after college begins. I can't wait!

Don't get 2 jobs on campus....

This second job is stressing me out man.

I recently got hired as an OL on campus and it is stressing me out.

I'm trying to do my time card and the one for my first job won't let me submit because of my new job. That means I'm short money. This can't be happening right now because I need every penny I can get for my trip to Spain.

I'm missing money and I don't know when I'm going to get it.

Almost a year at my first job and my contract ends next week. I'm not ready to leave and this issue is kinda making it harder.

So, next time you think 2 jobs on campus is a good idea, it isn't. Especially when the new one pays less and has you even more tired.

It's almost over...for now.

It's the final day. The last day I have to go to a class this semester. The stress is almost over....or so I thought.

Now that the semester is ending and the stress of classes, exams, quizzes, projects, assignments, etc. is going to end. The financial stress begins.

I am set to leave for Spain in exactly 5 weeks. That means I have 3-4 weeks to come up with the money for my flights, spending money for food and money I will have to save up to spend in Europe in case this internship ends up being not paid.

This is the thing stressing me out the worst. What if it isn't paid? I mean I'm all up for the experience, I can't wait to explore a new country and it's culture, but how will I survive financially?

My face is starting to get warm again.

Here comes the shaky hand.

I thought I'd be stress free for at least a few days. Guess I was wrong...

All Nighter #?

Another night spent staying up to work on an assignment. Except this assignment is a final. This was supposed to be an in class final but things happen and it ended up being take home. 

Now I would have loved to start it right after class, but I had errands to run right after class. Top it off, I had to sleep early because I had to be up at 5 AM for work the next day. Which I was at all day. In the sun. 

Sore feet. Dehydrated. Killer headache. I got home and did not wake up until Sunday morning. 

Lucky me though. My siblings had their friends over, so after taking another final while having an anxiety attack, I had to hold off on this one till everyone was gone. 

It's 10 PM. Everyone's finally gone. It's 11 PM, my family has finally gone to their rooms. 11:15 PM, time to start this exam.

How is it 2 AM already?

Oh man, 4:03 AM already?! I need at least a 5 minute nap. 

You know what, I'll just wake up at 6 and finish it. This isn't due till noon. 

A couple hours later. It's 11:30 AM. Just a few more sentences.

11:40 AM, submit. Finally. 

It's Monday, 12:23 AM. Haven't slept all day. When will I rest?!

Summer Plans

Summer is around the corner. Only one more week, I can feel it. No classes, no projects, no homework. I'm so excited.

Even better, I got offered am internship in Madrid, Spain this summer! 6 weeks in the heart of Spain and home of one of the greatest soccer teams in the world. Real Madrid. I'm also a Barcelona fan though, but that's a dumb argument, don't even try to fight me on it.

Now, as great as this opportunity is, it is stressing me the heck out. I need like $6,000 and I'm supposed to leave in a month. I have four finals tomorrow as well as a project due, which I haven't even started. I also have a final Friday morning which I have yet to study for and it's like 7 chapters I have to read. It's a law class. THAT IS A LOT OF READING! I'm fine, totally. Not about to get another anxiety attack or anything. Already had one of those today for like 5 hours, that was fun. Couldn't even feel half of my face. 

So yeah, as amazing as this opportunity is, I wish they would have let me know sooner. Like c'mon, I applied in the middle of April. I didn't think I'd get in and now that I did, I have to come up with all this money while worrying about finals. 

So I guess if you'd like to help me relieve some of that stress, please go donate to my GoFund Me page and spread it with your friends, family, co-workers, neighbors, etc. Tell them to help a girl out. This is for a chance at a good job after graduation and we all know how hard those are to get now a days. 

https://www.gofundme.com/marketing-internship-in-spain

FINALS!!!

The biggest thing that can cause stress to college students, FINALS.

They're a pain to study and cram for, but they mean the end is near! Not the end of the world...well, maybe for some...but I meant the end of the semester. Whether you're graduating or just getting another semester over with, you can't wait for them to be over with.

If you're in a major that has math, science, writing, or any major really, I'm praying for you. Praying for myself too. We're all going to need some help from the big guy to get through this week....and coffee or energy drinks.

Why were finals even invented? I mean, majority of us either didn't show up to class half the time or if we did, were we really paying attention? I don't know about you, but I'm an advertising major so unless I want to leave college with zero knowledge on how to write for the press or edit a video, then I'm paying attention.

It's pretty fun. I can become a YouTube star if I wanted to because I learned how to edit video in my class. I probably won't though because I'm too lazy. Wait, we were talking about something else right?

Oh yeah, finals! Sorry, this darn ADHD does that to me.

Oh God, ADHD and finals. Don't even get me started. Who's got the caffeine? Anyone? I can't concentrate!

What is sleep? Has anyone heard of it because I sure haven't, at least, not for the last week I haven't..

Oh hey, I found the definition! Here's what Google said:

"A condition of body and mind such as that which typically recurs for several hours every night, in which the nervous system is relatively inactive, the eyes closed, the postural muscles relaxed, and consciousness practically suspended."

Soooo..... eyes closed, several hours every night, muscles relaxed. Got it.

Yeah, I'm not getting any of that. Are you?

Anxiety during the day..

I just woke up, the sun is shining and I'm dreading getting out of bed for class. 

Do I really have to go? 

Will the professor take my anxiety as an excuse or still make me show? 

"I'm just not going to go," I tell myself. "But I have to go, I'm paying for it," I tell myself. 

My breathing starts to slow...

I'm trying to take deep breaths, but it doesn't seem to work. 

Then it begins. 

The tingling of my face.
The shaking of my hand.
The skin peeling around my fingernails. 
The aching in my stomach.

I can't make it stop. I can't breathe.

I don't feel like myself, but I have to get to class. 

If only the stress didn't affect me this bad, I swear I'd go to class every day.

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