123456….7..8.. 12345..678..910. That’s what my mind does
when I’m driving down the road on my way to a different place. I don’t really
know what causes me to do this, but I just do it. I’m not sure if it’s ADHD, anxiety,
OCD or stress. Every one of them gives me a different reaction, but I can’t pin
this to one of the many mental illnesses.
If you ask me why I bite my nails or suddenly back out of
doing something or going somewhere, then I can tell you it’s anxiety. If you
ask me why I start a conversation about a class assignment and then switch to “oh
look at that dog!”, then I can easily tell you it’s my ADHD. Ask me why I fix
your messy desk or offer to clean your dirty dishes, I’ll tell you it’s my OCD
and how it will drive me crazy if I don’t fix it and apologize for doing so. “Why
do you keep scratching your head?” "You're always complaining about headaches." Well yeah, that's stress hun.
It may seem like I have an answer for why I do certain
things that are noticeable, but most of the time, I don’t. Sometimes I don’t
know what it is and when I seek for professional help, but I usually get “well it
can be various things, stress can be one of them.” Thanks Doc.
Dealing with different kinds of mental illnesses in college
is tough. It can be even tougher depending on what you’re studying. I’m just an
Advertising major and the amount of stress and anxiety I get every day is
insane. It’s got so bad I’ve had to start taking medication I have never even
heard of. It worked for a while, but now my body seems to not let it kick in,
making it hard to find something that I can trust will help, even though I don’t
want to rely on meds.
